So I went to the Tascono reading and wondering why they would have it in such a small place and not at the school. I like the reading overall thought it was hard to concentrate in the crowded room. I like the first piece he did with the point click select it was like a thought process of searching online for something. I also like the parts where the said in "quotes like that" kinda of indicating that the audience could see this computer screen and their conversation on the web.

The second piece was hard to follow with all the acting and I had a hard time seeing the stage because it was so crowded in the theater. I could not follow the line of thought. What were the holding on to in the corner and why could the not let go?

conversation in my heart

ummm... hello..???
Hello!
What are you doing HERE?!?!
ummm....I don't know
well how did you get here?
I don't know
how do you not know!!
I just appeared here..ok
well why don't you just disappear?!?!
I don't know how
how can you know how to appear and not know how to disappear??
Why are you so defensive??
cause I can... this is my heart
well don't you like company?
\NO!
Oh!...why??
because there is no way out with out a lot of pain!
oh... there is not a door or window??
no, Hearts don't have doors or windows dummy
well I will I heard that before!
Why don't you trust me?!?!
ummm....why should I?!?!?!
cause I'm your Sister?
That never stopped you before
I've changed
I heard that before too
well it is different now
you've said that before!
What do you want me to do?!?!?!
disappear!...duh!
Besides that!
Nothing.. just disappear
will you give me a chance?
Nope, you already had several chances!
But that was years ago
SO!
so give me a chance
NO Ok Just No you had your chances and you messed them up, I will never forgive you Ok just disappear and don't bother saying goodbye cause you never do and never will... So just get OUT!
I don't know how??!!
Damn it find away!!

Bhanu Kapil bathhouse reading

I enjoyed Kapil's reading of her book Humanimal: A Project for Future children. The selections that she read from were well coordinated and had a wide verity from the work. I noticed a few similarities between the work she read an Incubation: A space for monsters. She used the colors is both books especially the color red as a reference to blood. She also talked to both books about being 'different and escaping to a place that should be more excepting but some times is not. In Humanimal she talks about the wolf girls escaping to to the woods only to be caught again, like the hitchhiker to Incubation getting rape again and again.

I liked Humanimal better than her other book.I feel like. this book was earlier to relate to and imagine the locations where the book took place. The language did not seen as jumbled in this book as it did in her other book.The colors and moods in the book seemed to be more drastic and vivid, it was easier to imagine in your head as something that would happen more that an author writing to an unknown reader beside the reader themselves. I also enjoyed the references to film production and how this effected the wolf girls. The best section that I could not relate too was the part in the beginning when she first got off her plane to India how it felt like home and her sense of belonging to the country, even though she had never been to India before.

weekly response

ok so I didn't do the reading this week because I signed up for a writing class and not a reading class. To be honest I think that the reading have nothing much to do with my creative writing, I don't need 20 examples every week doing these readings are not helping me write any. I do not need any busy work as being a full time student and working part time is keeping me busy enough. They are not that interesting and drag on I have no points about the reading to bring to class and think that a literature class is where all this reading belongs. So yea this annoying me to the fullest I just want to write more than I read for this class. so if you read this I will probably know although I am not sure that you ever read these. I guess I will find out so guess that is good.

poems

Anxiety

Oh you can not do this
It will be too much for you
You can just stay here

And now the sky is baby blue
the clouds a puffy and white
The wind pushes wave across the lake
the trees are all different colors
the water shoots up, stands independent
It did what others said it couldn't do

It believed in itself
It flew away into the air
but in the end it always
fall back down to the pond
it shoot for the stars followed the dreams
but on the end it got nowhere but the lake

so what will happen to me
I shoot for the stars following a dream
but will I end up back home
Where everyone said I would end up
All I want to do is be that butterfly
that flew toward the sky and made it
but will I end up being the water

that's what the people say
you can't make it, it will not happen
but the voices in my head say
you can do it beat the odds
go for it be fearless
so what will happen to me???










excitement

I am here now! I can feel it
the blood in my veins rushing like the waves
my eyes throbbing from the goodbyes
the smile on my face unable to disappear
my lungs taking in the fresh air
for a fresh start, a beginning
I did this it is part of me
like the knife in my heart
my hands are trembling like leaves shaken by the wind
my legs are weak ready to give out
but I stand here strong, ready

notes about "City Eclogue"

In reading the book I found the spacing very odd in a way It made the poems hard to follow one line to the next. I also found that the poems seem to be very dark and ugly in nature, that Ed Roberson view the city as a very negative and depressing place. Most of the poems seem to do with the number of buildings and the lack of nature in the larger cities. Roberson also uses a lot of imagary and metaphors turning the cities in to trash dump and the people who lived there were in a prison and could not escape.

points of intersets for 9-28

First point the third poem in the packet the one by Lyn Hejinian I found extremely odd and hard to follow I did not understand at all what the poem was about or how the lines connected.
Second point I may be missing it but I don't understand what all of the poems have in common and how they connect together.